Walking a thin line

ISAIAH 55:8-9

8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the Lord.

9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."

Sorry for not updating you last night. It was a tough day personally, seeing the house in Boissevain.  The place where physically Mom died. That and returning to Winnipeg and have our concerns confirmed that in fact Dad has a serious lung infection and is on antibiotics and needs ventilator support again, but is on less sedation and is starting to open his eyes more when talked to again.

Continue to keep Wally-(Dad-Grandpa-Brother-Friend) in your prayers.  For freedom from infection and a return to the thin line and that the thin line widens to a line as wide as Dad needs to walk out of the hospital.

It was good to see that where the fire was, confirmed that Mom's death was most likely inhalation.  Keep praying that the missing her at the gatherings together lessens as we continue to celebrate the good memories of her amazing life.

(sorry for any of you who posted comments on the Our Heritage poem in my tiredness last night while transferring it to another page so updates could stay just that I lost the comments made to the poem)

Verse for a drive

JOB 23:10-11

10 But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold.

11 My feet have closely followed his steps; I have kept to his way without turning aside.

Slept a lot on Saturday/Prayer Request

Dad slept a lot, which is a good thing to prepare for surgery.

Later on this evening he has developed a temperature. We don't know yet what is causing it, tests were sent. Pray that it remains nothing too serious.

We pray for continued travel mercies; some of the family need to go back to doing life with our home communities, work, school, and service. It will not be the same as we are reminded of Mom in different things that we do and say.

Sleeps a lot

Marg and Irene did the night shift last night with Dad. Yesterday and today Dad slept a lot, the bandage change went well and the burn on his head and hands seem to be losing less fluid. He continues to breathe well, coughing and suctioning of some of the inhalation "guck" (for want of another medical term). A Physio did some exercises as well. So he has good reasons to sleep.

PRAYER requests for the day

Just that we all take care of ourselves health wise so we don't wear out as we take care of Dad. 

For time to remember Mom in the busyness of all this doing and as our lives outside of this situation make themselves real. 

Regarding the circumstances of Mom's Death

Just wanted to give you an update on something that has been really disconcerting to all in this situation.

I am sorry I couldn't get back to you sooner, to allay some of images that might have been going through your heads in this situation.

Yes Mom died in a house fire but when they found the body and did the autopsy it was shown that she died of smoke inhalation and not burns, so she would have been unconscious when the heat became overwhelming.

She had gotten out of bed to follow dad but as he was trying to figure out the source of the smoke and get out the door the smoke had already entered their bedroom and she would probably have been quickly overcome with smoke so there was not enough oxygen for her. So...It was a comfort to have the medical examiner confirm that Mom died of smoke inhalation and likely didn’t suffer. 

Dad is still in SICU

Although it is encouraging to see Dad's progress, he is still in critical condition in SICU.

We will try to keep you as informed as we can about his condition on this blog.

Help us respect that because of the size of our immediate family, we can not overwhelm the SICU staff with more visitors than our immediate family at this time. The staff have been instructed to direct any calls to my brother Pete's cell phone.

If you want more information or want to see us personally, someone is usually hanging out in the SICU waiting room at some point during the day. (Unless of course we are all doing a family conference like we did yesterday.) I know for some it is awkward to write on a computer and feels so impersonal, so we appreciate your visits and prayers in the SICU waiting room at the Health Sciences Centre.  

Feel free to send us a word of scripture or prayer for Dad on the Message page or in a comment. We will read it to him personally. At this point because of his sedation levels and his critical condition we have not clarified the situation of mom's death with Dad. Based on his responses so far, we do not know how much Dad is aware of Mom's death at this time.

 

Remembering Mom/Praying for Dad

Remembering Mom

Although our thoughts are scattered, and we can't remember what we had thought about even 10  minutes ago, little things around us remind us of Mom, her love and prayers for each one of us.

Lori and I were just talking in the room and spoke of a memory but because I didn't write it down immediately I have forgotten even though I was going to post it here. Some of that is my 56 year old brain but some of it is also the scattered"ness" of my thoughts as I deal with what is going on with Dad today and mixing the loss of Mom into the mixture.

Praying for Dad

Good news is that they lowered some of the oxygen assist on his ventilator and he remains more alert trying to breathe with out assistance. 

He has a big dressing change and surgeon wound assessment today. Pray that they begin to see good healing  already in the wounds. 

The Family Conferences

Thursday Morning Doctors' Conference

We had a very informative and enlightening conference with the internist of SICU and the burn surgeon as well as the burn nurse clinician and Dad's primary nurse for the day.

Things we learned and understood a bit better were:

- Why the burn doctor wanted to restrict Dad's reverse isolation in room visitors to only four individuals, even though we are eight siblings

To decrease the chance of us bringing multiple infection into the room through improper protective clothing technique, but we can all talk to him through the intercom and he can see us through the glass now that he is opening his eyes and has become a bit more alert.

- What does it mean to have 30% body surface area burns

When he will have the skin grafts he will then have 60% body surface area that will need healing.

- What are heroic measures and what are reversible condition measures

Dad has said he has lived a full life and is prepared to meet His creator and rest, but he also knew when he was transferred to Brandon from Killarney that he would most likely be intubated.

- How come he looked so sick when we saw him in SICU Tuesday night and Wednesday

After he walked of the house to Margaret's place and then walked onto the stretcher on his transfer to Killarney.

- Why he is considered to be in critical condition and his healing will take longer than the average person with a burn

As referred to in another post, Dad's age of soon to be 80, his medical history of diabetes and asthma and previous cardiac surgery, as well as other issues that the healing process take longer than the average person. Dad will likely be in the hospital for a month or longer after the surgery which is scheduled for Wednesday at this point and time.

- Why does Dad have to wait till Wednesday for the surgery

The great doctors who are taking care of him are constantly assessing him and working to find the balance of optimizing his health for burn surgery without taking too much time for those skin grafts to be done and causing further damage to his burn wounds.

We are grateful to the great team of nurses and doctors and the other health disciplines who are working to optimize his chances of recovery.

Also we praise God for:

Dad's increasing alertness and ability to communicate despite being intubated. :) His ultrasound report and blood work that indicate he didn't have further damage to his heart from the smoke inhalation. He rests when we sing praise songs and hymns despite us forgetting the words to many a second verse. He squeezes our hands, if we get to be inside the room to visit him. He nods his head "yes" when we ask him if he is comfortable. He raises his eyebrows even with closed eyes when he hears the voices of his children and grandchildren on the intercom from outside the closed glass door of his room. He loves to hear the Psalms and other verses we read to him. Dad is a strong man with a strong faith and we are encouraged by his progress in the past 72 hours.

BUT EVEN MORE WE ARE PRAISING GOD FOR HIS GRACE IN OUR CONTINUED RELATIONSHIPS WITH EACH OTHER IN THIS TIME OF EXTREME STRESS AND LOSS.

As alluded to in poem written by Lori. We have a heritage of unconditional love from our amazing Mom! 

In a family conference facilitated by Wes the new pastor to be from Boissevain Whitewater Mennonite Church and led by brother Pete we were able to be reminded that we are not only praying for the healing of Dad. We are mourning and want to honour the physical loss a special lady that we called Mom or Grandma. A lady who was taken away from in a way we were not expecting. A lady we all loved dearly. It has been hard to deal with this because not only did the fire cause the injuries to Dad, but we have lost our beloved MOM and daily prayer warrior. For Marg, the sister who lives next door this is especially hard. The relationship between Marg and my parents was more like a partnership, so she is mourning the serious injury one person of that partnership and the devastating loss of Mom. 

Yet we were able to share "God moments" of how God has been able to work in miraculous ways.

- Pete & Glor were able to get two free seats on a normally overbooked flight to Calgary from Mexico, and despite delays were able to meet up with Ruth in Calgary for the last leg of their flights to Winnipeg and another passenger was able to change seats with one of them so they could sit together all three together.

- Mark & Jo were able to arrive safely despite towing with an empty transport trailer on slippery roads though nasty weather conditions.

There were many more but it just reminded us that despite our loss and pain God is in control and remains our protector and provider through this all.

Continue to pray for: 

- unity and wisdom as we plan our remembrances of our Mom in a way that our Dad can be involved.

- some measure of closure for all of us but organization as we start to go back to lives that are terribly interrupted by this horrific circumstance.

- Dad in his healing and planning for a future without a lifelong friend and home to go back to.  

Psalm 43:4-5

New International Version (NIV)

Then I will go to the altar of God,
    to God, my joy and my delight.
I will praise you with the lyre,
    O God, my God.

Why, my soul, are you downcast?
    Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
    for I will yet praise him,
    my Savior and my God.

 

Upadates on Dads Condition

Dad is currently in the Surgical Intensive Care Unit at the Health Sciences Center in WInnipeg.  He is in isolation room with limited access which is normal for burn cases because of the risk of infection.  He is not considered stable but the doctors are optimistic.  There is a tentative plan for skin graph surgery early next week.

What Happened Tuesday Morning

We are all still in shock but the Brandon Sun did a pretty good job of summing up the situation so far.  Below is a copy of the text for that article.

 

BOISSEVAIN -- Residents are praying for the family of a woman who was killed in a house fire and for the recovery of her husband -- a retired minister who was badly burned in the blaze.

Firefighters were called to the blaze early Tuesday morning in the town about 70 kilometres south of Brandon.

Dorothy Whetter, a neighbour of the couple, said phone lines were buzzing as citizens asked each other what they could do to help.

"The community will rally for whatever is needed," Whetter said.

"They need their time to grieve."

Neighbours and family identified the deceased as Martha Kroeker, who was in her late 70s. Her husband, Wally Kroeker, who is about 80, escaped the burning house and was taken to hospital with serious burns.

Whetter said Kroeker was seriously burned by the fire.

He was taken to hospital in Killarney, transferred to Brandon and then sent to hospital in Winnipeg.

Boissevain-Morton Fire Department Chief Martin Paradis said firefighters were called to the house around 1:50 a.m. Tuesday.

Firefighters tried to get into the home to rescue Martha but were unable. "We tried our best to get in," Paradis said.

RCMP and firefighters found Martha's body inside the burned home.

No cause for the fire has been determined yet.

Police say there's nothing to suggest the fire is suspicious.

A woman next door to the burned home who identified herself as the Kroekers' daughter said her father remained in hospital.

"We would appreciate prayers for his health," said the woman, who declined to give her name. "The family is holding up but, well, he's not out of the woods yet."

Whetter said Kroeker went to his daughter's house after he escaped his burning home in the belief his wife was right behind him.

 

-- Brandon Sun

Link to the Article

Republished from the Winnipeg Free Press print edition February 26, 2014 A3